Well Baby Bunnykins I have sat for hours (actually days) trying to think what I want to write here. I know that you are around me constantly and that you will be so happy that Janet and Ian and myself and Daron have grown close to each another. Cam and Erin are doing brilliantly and I have kept my promise to you that I will look out for them throughout their lives. I cant believe a year has passed since you left my life - a moment doesnt go by when you are not in my thoughts - and I read endlessly the texts that you sent me before you left me. I can hear you nagging me because I know that I need to get a new battery for your watch and havent got round to it - dont worry bunnykins I will get one - its strange but just having your things around make you feel close to me. I know that you were with me when I made that very traumatic trip to a certain place - it was strange because it's where I felt closest to you. This week has been hard for everyone with the anniversary and then all the birthdays that have fallen during the week - and now we have come to yours. I cant believe that my baby brother would be 37 today - yes catching me up fast! I will miss serenading my bro with the words of Happy Birthday to you...and sending you the rude card and present....god i miss you so much...so many times have i gone to text or to call you to tell you stuff and then realised.. So on this your birthday I send my baby bro huge huggles and kisses....you were and will always be my bestest friend in the whole world ever - a statement you also said to me just before you left. And I know we both meant it. I love you so much and you are always in my thoughts...and dont panic - as you know I have kept somethings secret - thats what best friends are for! Happy Birthday Bunnykins Big Baby Badger Hugs xxxxxxxx